We are making progress. I am always concentrating on my form when I
used to workout, so I am enjoying this slower paced workout routine; it’s
personalized for what I need and my goals and I think my chest muscles are
becoming firmer and L said that my big and stomach are tightening. Scary.
Because I am committed in a new way to my health I
am scared that I will start to sabotage myself as I have done in the past. Embarrassingly, I brought this up to Abui and
she has me write down what, where, and how I sabotage myself. I see them and what solutions I can make:
1.) I need more healthy (there is that word again)
snacks that I don’t have to worry about enjoying (There isn’t a great deal of
junk food in our house to begin with usually)
2.) She
wants another Summation, (last time I was supposed to do it, I was not be
precise enough) My precision is now like
Cyclops at pool (X-men comic reference)
3.) Looking
up a Caribbean diet and redefining it for myself (It’s what I know)
4.) Reference
Food Chart (Lance, commented on something called the Food Chemical Chart
5.) Food
Chemical Chart
These weeks have seemingly flown by homework wise,
because Abui makes the bar so slow that it is achievable and doable. I do fail periodically, but usually I don’t
because I do the easier stuff either the same day of our meetings, after the
phone call or hours before, if I forget.
I am still unemployed and so my main tasks are
about 1-2hrs cleaning the house (every other day), laundry by hand (if need be
to save money), job hunting, working out, meal preparations music practice,
songwriting, music (flute, mandolin, guitar, orcarina: think Zelda) playing and
repeat. I am used to using my time
wisely because of summer boredom. I
loathe being home everyday and walking helps.
I am certain that if I had a job this would be a great harder because
it’s not as easy as I am making it seem now.
Or maybe not, because I don’t like to waste time.
